Tuesday, March 02, 2010
I Tend to Never Forget. Ever.
Here's a fair warning: I remember. EVERYTHING.
This means if you plan on lying, deceiving or hurting me, I will remember it all for the rest of my life, and hell will most likely come crashing upon you.
Don't believe me? I can recall the conversation I had the first time I held hands with a boy: in the back of a bus....in the fifth grade. I remember the outfit I was wearing (now that I think about it I remember his outfit too) when I had my first kiss. I remember the text I sent when I found out my best friend was dating a guy I had adored for nearly two years. I remember it all.
I have an incredibly fierce memory, and this is to be handled carefully. I advise and welcome others to take this fact and pick it apart, especially when considering testing me or trying to re-gain my trust. If you hurt me in the past, I can simply bring that moment back and flesh it out in my mind to the point where it seems like it happened yesterday. This is a beautiful curse. This is also why I find it so terribly hard to let go of grudges, and it's even harder for me to forgive (when I actually do forgive - a rare occurrence for me.)
So...just don't mess up. Because I'll never let you forget, my friend. I will never forget. I gave you fair warning.
Plus, I will most likely write about it. Eventually.