Some people call it "leading a straight-edge lifestyle," I just think I have no desire to try it.
I've never had alcohol, tried drugs or even touched a cigarette. None of these things.
Being nineteen years old, a college student and having lived in a small-town my entire life, I personally consider this to be quite the accomplishment.
In high school there wasn't much to do around here; you could go bowling, to the movies or party. Since there aren't many options for teens later at night, I'm well aware that not always the best decisions are made around here. For some reason, I haven't been one of those people.
I have never had any desire to try a drink or try drugs. I never have before and I still feel no reason to. I could make it happen easily, but I've never felt the need and I've not once for a second thought hey, I should try this. I have no idea why. It's not that I have these strong moral decisions against it, I just honestly don't feel like it. Now, this post isn't going to be me telling you that you're wrong for doing these things or try and push you to think like I do.
However, I like to discuss this topic with other people. I've tried to get to the bottom of why people my age do these things. Why go to a party and get drunk? I've never seen the excitement in that idea. Most people came to the same conclusion: it's just fun. It's an escape. It's something different; it's simply something to do. It can also be a release; a way to let loose.
A way to let loose? Do you know how I 'let loose'? I write. I fill notebooks, emails, text messages and blog posts with my thoughts. I sit and talk things out with people. I'm a big communicator. After I process a hefty thought through writing, for instance, I think I feel that "high" people refer to that they get from drinking. As nerdy as it sounds, I can walk away after writing something feeling lighter, smarter and much more connected to myself. I never saw drinking or doing drugs as a way to get that feeling.
As said before, I love discussing this topic with people. I really don't know; I just don't want to try these things! I see no reason. I have no reason to do so. Because I don't exactly back up my decision with reasons, some people have come to assume that it must do with my "goody two-shoes" image, which I wasn't aware that I evoked, but I apparently do. Oh, well.
People believe that I think I am better than everyone else and therefore judge others my age for partying and doing things because well, I'm better than them because I don't. Peer pressure? It's there. I overcome it by simply standing my ground. I refuse to budge when it comes to anything else I'd do; I'm a very stubborn person, therefore I find it incredibly easy to dust off peer pressure.
No, I simply do not understand the mystique around it; and I'm really not sure I ever will. Call me a "straight-edge," "loser," "stuck-up good two-shoes," whatever you think works best for my situation. I guess I just will never understand.
What do you think? Am I just being a do-gooder? Am I really missing out on something all that great? And why does it bother people that I have no desire to try this? Am I really that strange of a person? :P
I'd love to hear your thoughts.
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