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Monday, June 07, 2010

Musing.

Do you know that feeling when you're saying goodbye? Whether you're saying goodbye for the night, a day, a week, a year, forever..... It's that feeling that you don't want to let go. You'd do anything to stop it, but you know that you can't and that you shouldn't.

It's that feeling. It's that feeling that ties my stomach in a knot, that confuses my head and toys with my heart. It's that feeling of letting go, temporarily or permanently that leaves you a mess.

These situations make you wonder what could have been. These situations make you ponder what happened already. What would have happened if you had made one decision differently in the past. Or had not made a certain decision at all.

If you hadn't walked in the room, if you hadn't started the conversation, if you hadn't turned down that road...would you be in that situation now? If not, where would you be?

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16 comments:

BROKEN FASHIONISTA said...

I have this feeling a lot. Especially when i have the urge to say goodbye to my first love it drives me insane, and then i choose to keep him around. its crazy.

Claire Marie said...

I have spent so much time on this feeling when I should have been focusing on "Hello"s... but it all brought me here, so how can I complain?

Beautifully written post.

Ashton King said...

As sad as it is to think about, a lot of times it's the goodbyes that really define a person's character. Whether you're strong enough to say goodbye, how you cope with the aftereffects, etc.

V said...

krap do you know I think about the same things sometimes WOW!!
Would I be here now if I hadn't done this or that... what if? shoo

JimNero009 said...

I never get a feeling like this...perhaps I'm just dead inside :P
Or i'm not in touch with my emotional self or something like that? Who knows!

Chrissy said...

I did that earlier this year when I decided to leave a toxic relationship that I had for over 4 years to a person that I thought was my 'soulmate'...Its hard and I do look back and am glad I did what I did because I would be unhappy now and kidding myself into believing everything was fine.

Insomniac said...

I have this feeling now, :( but it is from something I can't control, one of my favorite teachers who I am very close to, (Who promised us she would stay till we graduated!) Was transferred to a new high school an hour away, this will be her last year, and we graduate in two years....

*sniff*

Going to miss her! Hopefully we will keep in touch.

Tommilian W. said...

I think thats the exact feeling i have right now. I know it would be worth to fight for, but this would just hurt even more and still i would know that its time to let go.
Then I always think we can give it time, so much time but still you know that i have to let go.
I think realising all that makes it all even more painful but still it remains the only reasonable thing to do..

great blog btw ^^

What I Say Matters! said...

Part of helathy living i think is to weigh how you decisions will affect you now and in the future. I sometimes sit and think how did i get here but thenr elaize that HERe! isnt so bad!! it's where i'm sposed to be

Jess said...

I think about that all the time. I wonder what if...but then I realize that everything happens for a reason and I'm right where I'm supposed to be at this very moment so I might as well just go with it. Good blog.

Brooklyn Book Lover said...

I made the decision to say goodbye to my mother. She could not overcome her hoarding of animals and useless merchandise and, insisted on remaining an enabler of my brother's drug habit. I did not want to say goodby but had no other choice. :-(

Adgirl said...

I get that feeling it makes me feel like there's an empty gaping hole inside my chest. I regret the things I did that led to me breaking up with my first boyfriend and my second. I regret cheating and destroying something really beautiful. I'm so full of regrets sometimes it is hard to keep going. But the one thing is that I have learnt my lesson and hopefully that's the most important thing. Anyway, i feel your pain.

Cortney said...

I know this feeling all to well. I recently just had to say goodbye to really good friend of mine. It sucks not being able to talk with her anymore, but it's for the better.

Rebecca said...

I can relate to this, so much.
And it never gets easier. haha

I've really enjoyed reading your blog!

Josie said...

hey, my name is josie, and i love your blog... but i cant follow it! i dont know why... so ill keep trying.
kbye(:

.josout

Kristen said...

This is so great- it completely describes my recent struggle trying to get over my first love. It hit my heart dead-on. Thank you for sharing! You are a good writer :)

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