I've been dealing with a lot as of late, to say the least. I've got quite a bit on my plate, and not every day is the best day.
But lately more than ever, I don't mind.
With school, work, newspaper and just life, it's normal to feel overwhelmed. It's normal to feel stuck in a rut as well. Sometimes procrastination gets the best of us, and sometimes we do things don't exactly help our cause. Even if we knew that from the beginning.
Case in point: drama. Whether you're experiencing drama because your community college is "high school part two" or you're stuck with an unruly coworker, drama is inevitable. I myself tried being above it as well as distancing myself from it, but instead of feeling relief, I found the drama hitting me harder and finding me faster.
I was at a really low point the other day; I was stressed, overworked and honestly feeling under-appreciated. I was sitting in my 9 AM philosophy class, struggling to focus as well as keep my exhausted eyelids apart, when a lesson truly spoke to me.
If you've ever had this happen to you, no matter the class, you know exactly what I'm talking about. Whether you connect a lesson in class to your life, or finally solve that long, challenging math equation, you feel it deep inside. It's like the clouds have parted and the sun is shining through. No matter how tired you are you suddenly feel refreshed, and it completely changes any prior views about your class, your professor, or even yourself.
In class we were discussing Lao-tzu, or "the way." Lao-tzu is difficult to describe because once you put it into words..it's limited. It loses so much potential because you've limited it to what you call it, which could be completely different from what someone else calls it. The same could be said about people. When I'm dealing with someone and they refer to me as something, I've been limited. You're not letting yourself see everything that I have the potential to be because you're stuck on what you think you know about me. That's no way to live.
My professor also said that going along with these ideas, "going along with the flow of life, you can accomplish more than going against it." That spoke to me as well. I have to stop trying to fix everything and stop trying to prevent bad things from happening. I'm only human, I'm only a college student, and I've got to let things take their course. The only thing I can control is my response, and that's how I've got to live to be truly, completely happy.
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