Saturday, August 13, 2011
I had/am having a quarter-life crisis. Here's what I decided.
Holy crap. I've had a crazy last couple of days. Well, months.
If you haven't been along for the ride, here's a brief update.
I've loved Journalism since high school when I was the editor in chief of my school paper. I went to community college for two years, and was the editor in chief of that newspaper. It felt right. I felt like I was doing what I was supposed to do.
Then, this summer hit, and I started prepping to transfer to the local university for the fall. I applied for their newspaper, got a spot, and was offered stories.
I quit. I told myself I didn't want to do it. I didn't want any of it. So I withdrew my application for the fall semester, and quit the newspaper. Did some thinking and decided to try out elementary education. I registered for fall classes at my community college. They start in ten days. I just bought all of my books.
And then I did some thinking.
I miss Journalism. I miss writing; I miss seeing my name in print. I miss the purpose, I miss the dedication I had. I miss the things that used to fill me full of life.
So... I thought.
I want to go to my dream school. It's only four hours away, and a state school. The cost isn't outrageous. But I am paying for it on my own. All of it. So I have to look into scholarships, financial aid and loans like no other. But I want to pull this off. I want to be there in a year. I want to go to my dream school and study Journalism. Like I told myself since high school. I'm so tired of being scared. I'm so tired of being indecisive. I want to be able to prove that I can do what I believe I can. I want to try it out. And I think it's going to be worth it.
I'm going to take a year off of school. Yeah, it's crazy. I haven't had time off since the summer before my senior year in high school. But I'll deal with it. I'm going to work my ass off. Make money. Figure out who I am and what I need. And hopefully be leaving for that school a year from now. That's my plan right now. And it feels right.
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